this song is called “Soft Shock” it is originally by The Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
when you lose a friend there is nothing you can do about it. you cannot change the past, you cannot have a future, and you cannot change the fact that they are gone. often it causes a grief so deep it results in a feeling that you are not in control of anything. i am in control of this. i can record something to remember a beautiful person. i can cherish the memories i have. i can share this in her memory. She was incredible. She will be dearly missed.